Ever felt like you lost it all
Ball in your hands with a chance to score
Knees weak arms heavy and your back sore
You need a win MJ’ing in your Concords
You dig deep Bobby Hurly tapping on the floor
You wanna quit instead you coming back for more
Fast forward to that life that you living now
Last dollar and your girl out running wild
She started from a have not to a have got
Now she showing a** shots on her laptop
Make a n**** wanna go out and kill something
This damn woman got your brain thumping
Heart pumping
Changed your whole world thought you would settle down
Got you running round town like a f***ing clown
Slipped up and got her pregnant on y’all last dance
It’s either yours or your right hand man…damn
Who could I trust in this cold world
Six months later here comes my baby girls
Ten days, Ten days is all I had
I lost one of my daughters now I’m a dad

What kind of GOD take a kid for you
The same GOD turn around take a rib from you
Understand why my faith not strong
And why I’m so detached when he read them psalms
Remain calm in the eye of the storm
Things happen I deal adapt and move on
Next chapter thought i found the woman of my dreams
Jokes on me it ain’t always what it seems
Maybe i moved fast searching for forever
Somethings don’t last I never found forever
I lost all respect I just came to accept
An easy way out so I hopped on that jet
I did not fret I did not i don’t falter
My son lost a mentor my daughter lost a father
That’s the s*** I deal with on the daily
Baby moms won’t Skype they worried bought pay me
I got divorced, I ain’t skip one beat
I admit I was out in these streets

If it one thing it’s the damn other
I’m so disgusted how they treat my grandmother
They staying at the crib having kid after kid
Boyfriends coming home doing bid after bid
My ______ on crack sucking d*** for that s***
What type of s*** is this I’m overseas pissed
In the grand scheme of things it just is what it is
Everybody got a right to choose the life that they live
And I could care less if I air family biz
This is Kash talking that real life s***
Far from a man that I’m destined to be
In a way GODS will still working through me
As man new values been instilled in me
At one point just had to be real with me
Still I take chances with the cards I am handed
Still got scars from a life that needs bandage
Opening up to new feelings gotta manage
The new me well y’all gotta thank ______
I’ll never turn my back on my craft ever again
I gotta put my soul in these record and let it spin
I knew all along that I was destined to win
I picked up my pad my glass and then my pen
You have no idea self doubt held me back
No metaphors funny s*** homie that’s real rap
I provide all facts so when y’all view my lifestyle
Fans identify with them words I write down